I would very much like to see the return of my normal previous eating habits please: not denying myself breakfast and lunch and being able to resist the temptation of one of those horrendously unhealthy bakery-cooked cookies mid-afternoon through lack of energy and boredom and desire for stodgy food; I would love undeniably much so to be able to have porridge for breakfast and a sandwich for lunch and a regular evening meal without having meaningless snacks along the way which are solely a result of denying myself the day’s normal feeding schedule; I want to be able to sometimes allow myself a treat without feeling guilt-ridden and humungous immediately afterwards because I will be assured that it will not go anywhere it is not required to go; speedy metabolism: denying myself nutrition, I know full well, will only result in my poor body desperately storing anything I eat which has recently been unhealthiness due to deprivation which is incredibly and undeniably BAD despite my slightly biased attitude; I want to be able to restaurant-go with friends and family and future lovers without mild panic attacks; I know that I would never be the same, despite what they say, and I know that if I continue with this and fall into this deathly trap my entire future as I imagine it will disintegrate and I might as well say goodbye to any hopes I had of having a family and a loving husband and normal functioning happy long life surrounded by my own healthy family supported by my ever so successful career in journalism. I must learn to love myself as I am and learn that others love me as I am and learn that people I will meet in the future will love me as I am.