(Will probably result in not being in chronological order, too much has happened, or so it feels)
Oh this is wonderful. Thank you so, so much, it’s honestly the loveliest thing to hear when sometimes it doesn’t seem that way at all. I’ll keep your message in mind! xx
I would very much like to see the return of my normal previous eating habits please: not denying myself breakfast and lunch and being able to resist the temptation of one of those horrendously unhealthy bakery-cooked cookies mid-afternoon through lack of energy and boredom and desire for stodgy food; I would love undeniably much so to be able to have porridge for breakfast and a sandwich for lunch and a regular evening meal without having meaningless snacks along the way which are solely a result of denying myself the day’s normal feeding schedule; I want to be able to sometimes allow myself a treat without feeling guilt-ridden and humungous immediately afterwards because I will be assured that it will not go anywhere it is not required to go; speedy metabolism: denying myself nutrition, I know full well, will only result in my poor body desperately storing anything I eat which has recently been unhealthiness due to deprivation which is incredibly and undeniably BAD despite my slightly biased attitude; I want to be able to restaurant-go with friends and family and future lovers without mild panic attacks; I know that I would never be the same, despite what they say, and I know that if I continue with this and fall into this deathly trap my entire future as I imagine it will disintegrate and I might as well say goodbye to any hopes I had of having a family and a loving husband and normal functioning happy long life surrounded by my own healthy family supported by my ever so successful career in journalism. I must learn to love myself as I am and learn that others love me as I am and learn that people I will meet in the future will love me as I am.